The Second Liebster came with assignments...

    

                                                  
                                           
Just look at me with my award all shiny and gleeful


Yhello!!! yeye network
howdy 
I was given another Liebster Award by toinlicious toin babay..
The way the girl came up with the licious part sef..it gives us a hint about the way her mind works
"thank you for this award. it is appreciated'' muah!
she thinks I need to spill...i thought I had spilled enough already..LOL
okay, here goes

The rules are as follows

1. Thank and link back to the giver.

2. Answer the giver’s questions.

3. Nominate five other blogs with fewer than 200 followers.

4. Ask five questions for one’s nominees to answer.

5. Post it on your blog.

 

 1) What makes you happy and what are you passionate about?

 

Well, doing something I love..wink**

 

2) Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?

well, cant really remember but most def, there were so many upsetting times but nah, it doesn't really matter anymore i guess.

 

3) What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

Go to the top of a skyscraper and scream like Jack in titanic

Well, I'd like to drive a power-bike to work, with my helmet and zoom off without piercing eyes!!..okay!! there!! i said it..LOL

 

4) If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

 Don't fall for crappy love stories like twilight. Vampire and werewolf boyfriends eat up their victims in reality, not fall in love or marry them.

Love and Serve God no matter what happens. Never ever give up on God

 

5) Would you break the law to save a loved one?

well, I could. you never know what you can do till you get into those shoes where you're left with that choice.

okay...so another homework..start selecting!

well, almost everyone on blogger has the liebster and has answered a question or two but lemmie just put some jara

 

1) Feyi..yes you again..sigh! i know you love me no matter what happens..hehe

2) Tomi love..naturalista modelle.."cos you concurred with toin i need to spill so gba question tie!#sticks tongue out#

3) Madam Priscy..you were able to dodge all the questions we asked the last time so please come hia!

4) Sykik..lemmie get to know you more

5) In the midst of her.. your true life story really touched me. almost brought tears to my eyes

6) Blogoratti...Okay, lets hear it from a guy

here are your questions

1) what would you do if you were told you were adopted (wierd question i know but it just popped in)

2) if you were told to give all for Love or someone you love so much, would you hesitate or just give all?(please be honest!)

3) apart from your current location, where else is your dream land?

4) if you were given millions and a timer to spend it all today, whats the first thing you would do with the money

5) If your house was on fire and you were given time to pick three things, what would they be?

*last question was inspired by a movie I watched..(Leap Year) but dont do ojoro oo

 so thats all folks

love ya!!

Traffic Lights

                                         

Have you ever wondered at the way God links things together in your mind and the light bulb just pops up and you know this is something extra-ordinary?

Imagine a road without traffic lights.

I grew up in a neighborhood close to the University of Lagos for many years as a child and I do remember there was a particular junction that lacked traffic lights at that time.

Believe me when I tell you it was horrible getting to the other side of the road where the two roads meet.

At a time like 7:30 to 8am when you need to get to school, that junction is as tight as the word itself and you could spend an hour on that particular road.

What was the reason for all the lateness and drama? Commotion

That junction lacked something. It had a man who tried to control the movement of cars trying to get to the other part of the road at the same time. Imagine a crossroad linking four different routes just to take one route leading to the university road!!

Such great commotion!!

And some years later, I’m back to that neighborhood and there’s just something different this time around.

It was so obvious

It had traffic lights

And right there, just right there at that moment when I saw the ease traffic lights provided, the light bulb came up.

That is exactly what the Holy Spirit does. Without him, life would be total chaos

Commotion and misdirection everywhere

A little fight here and there, coupled with all sorts of verbal assaults.

You could spend so much unnecessary time trying to get across a very important junction whereas, if you had the Spirit or paid attention to Him, you needn’t spend your whole life on the bus stop.

The HolySpirit is our traffic light

We refuse to obey and we end up facing the consequences.

I remembered a movie I watched a while back and it explained it further.

The Matrix

Two different worlds.  The matrix was the world they could do wonders (the computer) while they were plugged to a certain source that provided that ability.

That plug had better not be removed cos you’d die.

Some people died in the matrix when their plugs were removed.

The Holy Spirit is your plug. You just have to stay connected or you’d die. Period!

I guess that was what probably happened to me. I paid attention to the flesh. It happens though.

Jesus cried. ‘’Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani..meaning “my God, my God, why have you forsaken me?’’Matt 27v46

The flesh cried out at that moment of his life.

So did mine in my last post.

“and do not be drunk with wine which is dissipation but be filled with the Spirit” Ephesians  5v18

I have the best thing I can ever have in this life. I have Jesus in me and I have to keep telling myself that!!

“that you put off concerning your former conduct, the old man which grows corrupt according to deceitful lusts, and be renewed in the spirit of your mind and that you put on the new man which was created according to God, in true righteousness and holiness’’ Ephesians 4v22-24

Its so easy to be like Peter. You’re walking on the water and then you see everything looking so overwhelming forgetting you have someone who’s there to hold you when you’re drowning.

You don’t need to struggle

Just look up to him.

And never get disconnected.

Never drop your gaze from his

And always obey the traffic light.

“But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to fulfill its lusts’’ Romans 13v14

So not easy, but by God’s grace, I’ll walk in the light Christ has provided. In your light we see light

PS: For the wonderful people who checked up on me and showed me what a hug or hugs are all about in my last post, I Love you. I really do. Your hugs warmed me up and showed me the meaning of friendship.

Krazan, northern girl, sykik, toin, tomi, lola,dayor, ibhade, feyi, aloted and che…

Your words were like honey drops.

Feyi, your music prescription was wonderful. I think you should be a music doctor..xoxo

Today

                                                         

I haven’t cried in this New Year, I’m trying to hold it all together. I feel quite better now

Its been a while. Well, not really cos I cried so much last year at what the words of dagger thrown at me by someone I cared so much about.

I imagine people being like music and the lyrics are what you really want to say to them. I don’t want to hurt them, but I want to tell them how I feel through the song I choose.

Why is it that people you care so much about are the ones who least care about you or rather, are not the ones who end up saying the soothing words you need to hear at a certain time of your life?

Am I that vulnerable?

I hope not

Someone says I’m getting better. Well, you wanna know the story of my former blog?.. I think I have the answer now, for those who care to hear.

It just wasn’t “it’’

I got scared.

That should be enough for now

It had a little darkness in it. The things I wrote when I felt I should just say how I feel, not knowing anything about this sort of comment and readers stuff.

Mindshade. Love God. Hate the dark side.

Puskov told me I’m getting better. I’m not the girl I used to be or rather, I’m starting to relate more with people and overcome my fears of getting too close to people.

But I realize I get too close and I end up falling flat

I fell today. Literally though. While walking since I was about to get something to eat. And due to the kind of person I was, I wanted to just run away to someplace.

And I did run…

Still, I didn’t cry..

Big girls don’t cry.

But they cut deep and swallow the pain. And that was what I did throughout today. Ignore it and pretend it never happened.

Bhollu walks confidently, like she owns the road. I walk pretty fast, and today when I walked fast, I tripped, lost balance and fell like a careless child.

Who was I running from by the way?

I’m going to watch my steps next time and walk like Bhollu, so that I don’t fall.

Or rather, I’d like someone to talk to while walking on the road. So that I’d walk more carefully

Walk like a lady!!...Act like one!!! They yell.

 I grew up among boys

 

I want to get a new Rx Coat

I’m sitting in the bus on my way home, and I sit by the window cos I just love the view from there. I can think and I can read blogs. But battery dies and I’m left to stare at the woman hanging the slippery fish on the road to sell and how slimy they look.

Ears plugged and all I can listen to is Simon Webbe’s Lay your hands and After all this time.

I don’t know how in the world they relate to me but It makes me remember a friend I had in school who introduced me to this artiste.

Our friendship didn't really work out...

Simon Webbe is black. If Kemi could check out what I was currently listening to, she’d call me black.

She thinks I’m white in a black skin.

Not the first person to say that to me anyway.

Jojo plays next and I wish I could just scream like her!!!!...

But I’d get tied up if I’m not careful. And then I remember the rate at which prescriptions from the Neuropsychiatric ward come Into the Pharmacy and I know that I don’t wanna know how antipsychotics and antidepressants taste like. LOL

And so I just stare and cover both ears while I imagine myself jumping on a bouncy mattress. I wanna jump high and bounce on the huge bed just for it to throw me back into the air.

I wanna run to that swing and have my best friend push me till I scream and laugh.

I just wanna be happy, not sink into the old me. the moody, quiet and secretive me.

The tears sting but I hold it back. 

“Shhhh” you shouldn’t do that in a bus for goodness sakes!!

The BRT is about to come to a halt at my bus stop and I’m back to reality.

I stroll to the door and I can tell the ticketeer is looking at my “look-alike dreads”

I have to loosen it. I didn’t intend on it becoming that way.

The bike man says something and I crack a smile after a while.

I get home and stepping inside the gate, I can hear the door to my house opening.

That’s how quiet the place I live is.

Someone is home, and its my mum. She opens right from when she hears the gate opening.

I can tell she’s concerned about what I went through today and she wants to offer her shoulder

I’m grateful to God for that.

By the way, this happened Yesterday.

Memoirs of a vulnerable Child

God bless the day i found you

hey you
hey me
wow!!
2013!

thank God for you and Me

thank God for blogging...

thank God for the day i found you guys

and thank you all for being part of my 2012.
so many kinds of humans exist out there including species like me

I realized the crazy but fun ones don't exist outside blogsville but inside as well and when you need a

                                           

whole lotta drama, just come over to the other side...
cos blogsville, right here, is where you get reality, fantasy, drama and all of it

shake it with a little jazz sometimes

I've lived, loved, laughed and wondered right here thanks to you guys
i've seen the passion in people when they write..their passion for God, for life, the emotions they try so hard to conceal but just end up spilling out everything on a post like splashing paint on a clean canvas and i've seen empathy, sympathy and love.

Love still exists. sometimes with everything going on around, its so easy to doubt but i guess it still does.
you might not find it in a 3D dream or Transformers 3D but in reality and in this world where God still watches over us, it exists
Don't let Satan put out your light!!...music**i'm gonna let it shine

there's a saying where we are told if people don't add to you, you delete them.
just like i deleted someone and when he called i was like huh? oh!!..i did?
hehehe...classic expression that when replied with sarcasm, you dont have the right to slap the person or eye the person
just pop your eyes out and stare like.. ''lets pretend we didn't have this conversation..''

well, good news cos you guys have added and so you're sticking this time.
if i start mentioning everyone, it would be a long something and so....
ngbati ko n se ibi la fe sun si...lool

I told you i was gonna come back with something for you guys.
it's not a parcel, neither is it something wrapped in a box but i believe its so much more...
cos when i listen to it, i think of you guys.
and so, please listen along with me..

an old friend told me to listen to it while I was still in school.., and then i loved the song and i pass it down to people who mean much to me.

kk..., "End of tales by moonlight"lool
lets just hear the song

P.S: lest i forget!...Happy belated birthday Simply Me..wishing you a wonderful additional year.
sometimes, i imagine you on fire when i read your posts.hehehe
i hope you enjoy the song too as part of buydae gift...

Vampire teeth, Childhood Christmas movie of all time and etcetra

                                                    


hey youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!

I cant believe ive been away this long from my family. somehow i feel blessed to have you guys in my life. Yes, in my life. Sometimes when i think of each one of you in my head, yes, each one of you, i smile and i know you guys make blogging worthwhile. you guys are so real to me.

yes, i guess that avoided the clearing cobwebs part although i just mentioned it anyway. How have you all been?...i read your some of your posts but not all..#and so you can imagine how much i've missed all of you...sometimes when i'm on my way home, i settle down and read your posts and somehow i cant comment and so i leave it waiting for the right time and sometimes, i just do it.
Network issues where i work so you know how it takes time to load a comment sef..so i dont bother

now, away with my rant and to the topic of today's post and what has been happening so far

Did you ever know there was something called Vampire teeth?...heheheh...orisirisi..yes o. when i was little i watched vampy movies and so when i glance at my cannines in the mirror, i'm like whoa!!!...please dont tell me i'm seeing what i'm seeing ooo...like fang?

all this went on in my mind

and then, fastforward to years later where i've stopped watching vampy movies and i'm grateful to God that i'm not a Twihard fan, cos most def i would have been, thank God for his mercy. and my colleagues watch vampy diares and talk about vampire teeth.who has and whose is conspicuous?
and then i flash back to my thoughts years ago and i reveal it and they're like

"whoaaaaa...you do have Vampy teeth!''

I dont know what to say about that but i'm not ashamed to reveal God's beauty in me. He made those canines pointed for a reason and i know he didnt have Vampire in mind when he did, and so, a quiet calm and smile crawls up inside me when i think of such humor God plants in our lives.
I thank God for giving me the grace to see the beauty in others and myself even when the world thinks they're weird or "out of place"


On to Christmas movies i watched while growing up, my favorite or rather, most remembered was Home Alone featuring Macauly Culkin. Gosh!!..that boy was the epitome of cuteness and he made us laugh.

parts i remember:

1. with his eyes wide open after realizing he had been forgotten, he said "I made my family dissapear"
but seriously..how large can a family be for them to forget about one child at home?

2. on the plane when something had to be passed down to him and his siblings kept passing the stuff saying.."pass it to kevin, pass it to kevin, pass it to kevin....
"kevin's not here, kevin's not here, kevin's not here......" till it got to the mother and she repeated the same statement unconsciously and with eyes wide open, she screamed..."KEVIN!!!!"

3. the soundtracks..most especially "oh Holy Night" Kevin went to church to probably hand over his plans to God on how to deal with the thieves...hehehe''

4..and then the part where he plays the tape of a crazy mafia who shoots people who owe him money or something like that just to scare away the thieves
its been a long time i watched it so you can correct me if i'm wrong...#wink*

funny enough, his parents actually never got to their destination because of him. they always had to come back

Its been a while i watched any christmas movie, cos just few or none of them actually depict what the Season is about but they give a good laugh though.

I added etcetra right?

i'm grateful for you guys...you do mean a lot. all of you, no one excluded.
Feyi..thanks for coming to pull me outta the closet..and mstizzle, toinilicious toin babay and all of you all.
i have something for you all in my next post, so just stay tuned
        "i'll be back'' Terminator's voice
oh....lest i forget.."feliz navidad"
how i miss boney M..

No matter How Close

                                                          

                                                     

 

When I was quite little, there was this advert on TV that amused my parents and I about Panadol. Two women were involved but one had the headache and so the friend had to do the job of bringing her the drug.

And then she brought a white tablet that resembled Panadol (probably Paracetamol but without the brand name of Panadol^TM and so the woman with the headache refused it and wouldn’t give in whereas the friend insisted since it was a white tablet, and it would solve the headache problem,

then viola!... why shouldn’t it be called or seen as Panadol?

An amusing convo went thus;

C’est ne pas Pandaol..

C’est ne pas se kini?

And at the end, the commercial line went thus; if it is not Panadol, it is not the same thing as Panadol.

Where am I going with this?

For a while, Salt’s post on Being and Not doing Got to me where she said no BUTS…you have to be sure of what you want and what you Know cos people will come and the waters will rise and you might start looking retarded but when You know What you want and What you’ve heard, you’ll never settle for less.

The fact that you’re close to Heaven but not there yet are is different from being there. Jesus told a man that “you’re not far from the Kingdom of God.’’

The fact that its 99.9% doesn’t mean its going to be approximated to 100%. The Hand sanitizers and disinfectants promised us that same percentage and Here we are still battling with germs

The fact that it looks like Gospel, or sounds good doesn’t mean it is from God. Take note.

The devil himself transforms as an angel of Light. He's been here quite long so he knows what he's doing. We're the ones who should be alert cos the Devil goes about looking for who to devour.

I mean c’mon...what impression do you give me when you have a so-called gospel song in your album and that same album contains another song titled. ‘the greatest sex I ever had?’’

Please tell me what relationship has light with darkness or rather, how can Friendship with the world be cool with God when He stated clearly that Friendship with the world is enmity with God.

If any man loves the world, the Love of the father is not in HIM..Period! (Na bible talk am o)

The fact that it is a family tradition or part of culture doesn’t mean God approves. In fact you would be surprised that is what He doesn’t approve of.

For laying aside the commandment of God, you hold the tradition of men…

All too well you reject the commandment of God, that you may keep your tradition

Making the word of God of no effect through your tradition which you have handed down. And many such things you do. Mark 7v9-13

Just because the Guy or Girl talks about God doesn’t mean He knows Him or even has a personal relationship with Him and so that shouldn’t be a go-ahead to marry him or tag Him as God-fearing

The fact that everyone sees it as okay, cool, accepted and the “norm” doesn’t mean God sees it that way. This was one of the things THE SHACK made me see.

The fact that someone calls on a god doesn’t mean He’s calling on the same God as you are. For all we know, so many gods exist. Even Lucifer dons himself as one. And the other ones we classify as myths, people saw them as gods in the past.

Know which God you’re calling and Know which one you serve and correlate with.

There is only one God.

None is good, no…, not one, but God alone.

The fact that people replace Santa with Jesus on Christmas day and forget the real representation of what that day symbolizes doesn’t mean it is OKAY.

And the fact that you’re reading what I’ve written here today doesn’t mean I have everything figured out or perfect either

I’m just a vessel.

Lots of love